hershy314

i get fucked over everywhere i go lol. only reason i left home was cause i made some stupid mistakes that caused me to lose my job and apartment in the same month. i have since learned from them mistakes and are willing to try again

Duh, that's why I'm going to see if she wants to hang, if nothing happens then I'll say fuck it and move. Course the move is not a definate thing yet. Still gotta find work and that crap, so I may end up staying here regardless.

I didn't meet her last night, we been working together for a while now. It's just been in the past few weeks that we started interacting together. It's just small stuff now. The reason for going to St Louis is cause thats home. I really have no other reason for going back up there.

Yeah, I mean why would I leave if theres a reason to stay?

Gee how'd ya know? jk. I dunno really, like I said it could be a problem. But thats only if this girl does like me.

Tomorrow morning I'm heading up to St Louis to look at apartments and talk to a few managers bout work so I can finally get to putting my moving plan into action. I'm both nervous and excited bout it. I'm only going up for 2 days since thats all the time I can afford to take off work. But of course there is a problem. Well could be a problem. Last night at work while I was carrying some glasses up the server station, one of the severs told me to "get to work". I set the glasses down next to her, just smiled and said "no". She just smiled back and said that she was only kidding. A few times I cought her looking over in my direction, when she noticed that I'd seen her she would quickly turn away and would have this slight grin. We talked a little last night, she wanted to know bout my other job and what I did there. Two of her friends (one being her roommate) also work at the same place I do. If I see her tonight I'm going to see if she wants to hang.

your welcome

I was heading home from work when I passed by this church and saw the cars sitting out front, so I stopped and shot this video. Sorry the quality sucks

I'll look into that, thankx

This morning I stopped at the store before heading into work. Well when I went to leave the store my car would not start. I tried a few things to no avail, so I walked from the store to work. When I got off work I went back to my car and tried again. I finally got to run, how I did it is kinda weird. I turned the key to the on posistion, put my foot on the break and moved the gear selector up and down a few times then turned the key. That there caused my car to run. I know someones going to say that I didn't have it in park all the way, that would be false. I made sure it was in park like 5 times prior to doin that with the shifter. I'm sure there is something I need to replace but not sure what, any ideas? It's a 93 Taurus btw.

I was watchin a few videos of independent artist on youtube. I could tell instantly that some of these singers could make it big one day. I also could tell that they love what they do, to them this a hobby and not a career. My cousin is one of these people who have a love for music and also has the talent and drive to make it. Her band up in Chicago have gone on tour a few times this year, sadly cause of her job she could be at all shows but did her best to make as many as possible. If ya go to youtube and search hollows/chicago you might find a video. I tried but but the quality of the cameras used in the crowds really isn't that good, plus the cheering and stuff really drowns out the band. Other people I like on youtube is Christina Grimmie, Megan and Liz, Tyler Ward just to name a few. So I suggest people, you go to youtube and search the independent artists and show the support. Many have music avalible on Itunes even. If you agree, put up some vids of an independent artists you think we should check out.

thats epic right there

I was heading into work that morning when I first heard, this is something I will never forget. Specially since I have a few family members in the military.

Only problem tho, I hate parties. Some reason I always get board and leave. Your sir are not drinking enough try hanging out with different ppl see it that helps You could be right, but ya know something. I kinda quit drinking a few years ago. Not really cause I wanted to, but where I live now I gotta drive an hour away to get any kinda alcohol so it's really not worth it. Specially when gas is the same price as beer.

This is a little off topic but I have noticed something. If I have a problem the thread takes off quick, if its something thats good news for me it kinda lacks. Oh and another thing I should mention...well maybe not. But bout 2 years before she met me, she spent 6 months in a padded cell. It was cause her dad passing way prior, blames herself for it. Whats scary is I know a few other girls who spent time in a mental ward and all had a thing for me. Maybe I only attract the mental cases?

Only problem tho, I hate parties. Some reason I always get board and leave. Well are you always the DD? I have been a few times but not always, I usually would leave way before my friends wanted too.

live life some? sure, when I can find the time to do so I will.

Only problem tho, I hate parties. Some reason I always get board and leave.

not everytime, just updated my build log..no problems there.

sadly no, all the pics I had were in an old email account that lost the password for and now that email accound is closed.

I'd have to agree 100% But it takes a special kinda girl to get my attention and keep it. I know a few girls that I could date, but known them long enough to where I could tell it would only last a short while. And sorry but the complicated shit, my life is complicated and some how that just goes into the way I type.

I'll just put it this way. We fought bout as much as we f**ked and we fought a lot. I do agree that our brains seem to only remember the good, but I remember it all. Both good and bad.

she was a great girl, ya should kept reading man.

Back in 2002 I met this girl on yahoo pool and started chatting, nothing major at first. Real sweet girl, great to talk to and all that shit. When we met she had a bf and I just lost my gf to cancer (sad I know). Anyways we started talkin frequently and out of no where she breaks up with her bf cause she had started to fall for me. I figured what the hell, no girls in my area where showing any interest so why not try this long distance thing. We do this for close to a year, but in October 2003 everything changed. My roommate got laid off work and since he owned the house we lived in he decided to jack my rent from $250 up to $650. I told him there was no way I could afford that. He tells me that I better pay it or gtfo. I tell him I'll be gone by the end of the week. I tell this girl what had happened and she tells me to hang on. So I'm waiting for a little bit, then she gets back and says that I can come stay with here. Heres the thing, she lives in Cali and at the time I was in St Louis. That night I bought a ticket on greyhound and was on the road the next day. Tip for ya'll never take greyhound if ya traveling over 1000 miles, got no sleep. I get out there and we hit it off imeditally. Her sister drove her to the bus station, on the way back to "our" place I look at her. She asks me what I was thinking, I just said that I wanted to kiss her. Holy crap, best friggin kiss I ever had. I mean it was one of those where ya felt something special. So we date and do everything a couple does for bout a month, after that things start going down hill. We start fighting and what not. Mainly cause I didn't like her flirting with other guys. I know I should of been like, ok so shes flirting with him I'm the one shes going home with. I knew she was a flirt, but guess I was just stupid to think she would change if I was around. Well in fact she had changed when she met me. Before she met me she was in a way a hoe, but when she met me she stopped all that. Also she smoked weed a lot, but when I was around she never touched it. Still smoked ciggs, but oh well. So thats the back story. Now on to the reason for this post. Past few weeks I've really started thinking bout her, don't even know why either. Just some reason memories and other thoughts bout here entered into my head. I wanna call her and talk but I get too nervous. I know I shouldn't. We have stayed friends since we broke up in 2003. I really don't know what to do.

alright, thanks