unknownuser200985 Posted May 17, 2008 Report Share Posted May 17, 2008 Hi my real name is Matthew trager... im 19 years old I'm currently unemployed and living with my parents... i feel like a total failure .... ive said i was doing a alot of setups and things which i really wanted to do... but i have to admit none will happen except one when it will is beyond me... ive been trying hard but it seems i screw up some how... it all dates back when i first joined roe... originally i dropped out of school to join the army was 17 going 18.... i was going to use my sign up bonus to by a kick ass system... but i decided to wait till to in the airforce which u had to be 19 if u had a ged ... in meanwhile i started working a few jobs... first fo which was setting and installing houses for pauls moble modular... was good enough money... to get a great system... which brought up system number 2... as i started to get money around... working there was to much for me... i was working from 4:30 am till 10:30 at night 6 days a week... i couldn't hack it... so i end up quiting... less than a month later ... i started working with my uncle doing flooring... wasn't great pay but it was money... which brought on system number 3.... again started saving money... but then i started to have a drug problem... weed and acid... parting ... though it wasn't controlling my life ... being a nice guy was... i was always the guy who'd buy everyone food because i felt bad eating in front of them... end up buying weed... alcohol.. etc... by the time i got away from all that ... business was slow... and i was layed off... so i ended up getting my GED not to long after... ive been threw 2 cars already... a 1994 suburban... and an 1985 Buick lesabre, neither of which ive really driven... do to never having a license... ive always looked at it as someone else's failt ... such as blaming my mom for making me worry so much about her drug problem ( crack head literally) and her oding... or my father cheating on my mother... or my cousins getting stabbed... or just depression... from having very little friends... see everyone i grew up with all became stone rs... or coke heads... or **** ups... i guess i allowed myself... to fall down that path HARD ... though ive never done coke... Ive sat on my ass Way to long... and ha vent at this point worked in sometime... idk what i was waiting for... but im finally starting to get things around... as of now my status is i have a diploma (GED) drivers license... pending was suppose to go today... but apparently they have no record of my appointment... so now i go June 11th at 2:30 pm... work status... unemployed... i went to a job fair... found an apprenticeship to start doing dry wall work... at 13.70$ an hour working my way up to 20$ over the whole program with full benefits... 3 year program... then 1$ every year raise... more than likely because i said something it wont happen... lol.. but hopefully it does... if not... i will find another job... I'm no longer sitting on my ass... other than giving my parents room and board... every single penny will go into the system... i hope 1 year and a half... because im a total social hermit to say the least anymore... i sitt home all day on my ass... and talk to like 4 ppl online... ive lied to several people and for that im truly am sorry... i was to ashamed to admit the truth... and i really am going to do this... if it takes my whole life... right now... i cant even afford the design from pete ... so im pretty much a total failure you have it... but i hope to change and here are my goals 1 get off my ****ing ass and grow uo 2 make sure i have enough practice to pass my test 3 get a job ... apprenticeship or not 4 work until i have enough money to acquire a Chevy ext express van 5 buy the system piece by piece what i hope to do IF everything goes as planed is chevrolet express ext Custom bandpass designed by pete looked over by big oki(talked to both 10 Cactus elite mk2 18's custom built with a lowered fs for music 5 Cactus elite 12kd 30-40 powermaster d1000's 1 200 amp 12 volt iraggi alt 3-4 400 amp 16volt iraggi alts kicker 850.2 amps highs 16 8" whip audio mids 16 8 oz audio ost 05? tweets not sure there all costing under 25k including the van again i wanted to use every penny i have long as it takes... even if it was years... but doubtful it will go to plan but all said and done...i relieze everything that happend is my fault... i did this to myself... im ashamed.. i just want everyone to know sorry and ashamed i am... if none of u would like to talk to me ever again... ill respect that... i wanna say sorry to some ppl specific Charles ryan jr (tacosys) brock jones (flexxinissues) ed (forget ur last name) (banginexplorer) mike (xpolorspinn22) dj (mojo626) and anyone else i offended by lien... I'm sorry and if u feel the need to bash me i understand thank you for your time reading this... sorry all ps ... if i dont talk on here for awhile im just asshamed of myself Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~digital~bass~ Posted May 17, 2008 Report Share Posted May 17, 2008 you realised you just pretty much told ppl your life and your information...and what are you talking abt anyways... Quote Car Audio + Bodyboarding/Longboarding = LIFE!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
unknownuser200985 Posted May 17, 2008 Author Report Share Posted May 17, 2008 i guess the ppl at roe would understand better Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
99vic Posted May 17, 2008 Report Share Posted May 17, 2008 Quote REST IN PARADISE BIG RICH (Sqmonte) never forgotten Why do you guys ALWAYS dispute on NUMBERS????? It's such a played out argument, so fucking annoying.... It's 12 fuckin 15's.... It's louder than you... Shut the fuck up... /Rant I'm so jealous, it makes me want to club baby seals. That shit gets down HARD!dont buy from knowledge he will scam you. http://www.stevemeadedesigns.com/board/topic/30995-official-knowledge-feedback/ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~digital~bass~ Posted May 17, 2008 Report Share Posted May 17, 2008 ive been a mmber of roe abt 3 years and im still lost haha... Quote Car Audio + Bodyboarding/Longboarding = LIFE!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
99vic Posted May 17, 2008 Report Share Posted May 17, 2008 maybe me was venting??....... in a 40 paragraph thread. Quote REST IN PARADISE BIG RICH (Sqmonte) never forgotten Why do you guys ALWAYS dispute on NUMBERS????? It's such a played out argument, so fucking annoying.... It's 12 fuckin 15's.... It's louder than you... Shut the fuck up... /Rant I'm so jealous, it makes me want to club baby seals. That shit gets down HARD!dont buy from knowledge he will scam you. http://www.stevemeadedesigns.com/board/topic/30995-official-knowledge-feedback/ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ipod Posted May 17, 2008 Report Share Posted May 17, 2008 Quote Hustle hard, Stack paper, It's alright, ya'll haters, It's nothing, We major, You see me, Hi Hater! =) ~ Manio Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
A&W ROOTBEER Posted May 17, 2008 Report Share Posted May 17, 2008 sounds like you've been delt a rough hand man..but whatever doesnt kill you makes you tougher and smarter hopfully..i can understand you comming here and just venting man..sometimes we all just need to let shit out and not care what anyone thinks about us..cause we all have/had it bad in someway and somehow..all i can say is keep your head above water and i wish you luck with all your future plans man.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
unknownuser200985 Posted May 17, 2008 Author Report Share Posted May 17, 2008 pretty much... plus and i felt it was the right thing to do... but ur boobs there cheered me up Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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