TL:DR summary:
OP rubbed his pussy during the afternoon on sunday...
OP dated 1 girl and intended for her to be his wife
OP is now sitting in the "profit" side of the margin....
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Conclusion: Your at the best possible point in your life now. You broke up with some highschool relationship that youve had for how long? Most chumps date and marry the 1st and only girl they ever date out of highschool. Is this what you wanted? Does not your inside gut feeling tell you to go out and date other women? Spring is on its way in, prepare to setup a list of females, clean your car up, clean up your attitude and take care of business.
Experience in the making...
I can speak of a story in which its similar of yours but it cost the guy about $15,000 and all of his years wasted. Dude was so upkeep about his girl, she treated him like shit, constant arguing, dude spent $$$$ on it. Killed his self esteem, literally i watched this kid incase of suicidal tendencies. Almost got kicked out of college becuz of her, he lost a $15 a job with potential for $20+ an hour wages because he slipped on his grades for the apprenticeship, inturn to be with her. She provided the kid nothing....
/And to think with such treatment one would want to still give up their heart and feelings to another human being on this earth in return for such treatment.