i've spent my whole life being all that i can be.
only seeing what i wanna see.
whether it be good or bad.
things to make me happy or things to make me mad.
the thoughts that swarm around my head.
makes me think sometimes im better off dead.
to always push the limits physical and mental.
to become not perfect nor monumental.
not for him,not for her,and maybe not even for i.
i am not conceited.but perhaps i set my goals to high.
or is it others that make me think that.
sometimes when they stare i wonder what they see and look at.
do they see what i see.
or do they even see me.
not me as in i,or me in physical form.
but see what i try to perform.
they look at my name and only see the great.
not the anger hate or the the irate.
to be told one thing your whole life and to not believe.
you can deceive and disbelieve but to know you'll never revieve relief.
to know you'll never ger it even be it brief.
the weight of the world makes it hard to walk.
but the pain makes it hard to talk.
but my pride will not let me show that i am weak
maybe it is immortality that i seek.
i do not believe that that i can bleed.
i can not succeed,i cannot follow but i can lead and exceed.
i do not know what i've been put here for.
but i know that it will never be enough i will always need more.
it is not greed but the thought that i have to exceed expectations
to look past temptation frustration and complications
will i ever be happy is what i always wonder.
or will the passion and the need pull me under.