Well its happening again, life has once again taken a gigantic shit on me. As of tonight my grandfather isn't likely to make it to the weekend. My aunt FINALLY comes down to see him now, she hasn't been around in nearly 5 years and we've been telling her to come and see him that he's getting bad, she always says she's coming then backs out saying her stomach is bothering her, for 5 fucking years she's pulled this shit and now the end is near she wants to "be there for him" WHAT THE FUCK. Im just completely wore down now, my life has been shit since my last day of school. I gotta go to college, and I want to, financially I'm worried I won't be able, I'm flat broke, my mom and dad are too, they owe money on taxes they didn't take out of my dads disability check, i graduated so my parents lose $600 a month because SS won't cover me no more and we're struggling as it is. My truck needs a clutch so bad that it stinks everywhere i drive it and is slipping like mad, once again me nor my family have money, once it quits it quits and I won't have a vehicle to go to work with so i'll have to quit my job putting more stress on my mom and dad financially. How awesome, then my grandfather who was given 6 months to live 9 months ago is coming to an end. All I've ever wanted was for him to see me graduate, I was so excited that he might be around for my graduation, the 30th is my graduation date, its like god is teasing me, this fucking close to graduation and his body is going to give up? My life is just going down hill, I don't even want to wake up tomorrow.
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