i understand that, even though we have totally different budgets on audio gear i can relate i spent well over what i did on car audio and hobbys/habits i have obtain and i realized with that money i could have done so many different choices in them
Good luck in your choices in life and honestly hope for the best, i may not be ready to sell my gear yet but other things in my life needs to go.....
so sorry for the long rant
on what ever you choose to do